Trust me this post took me way longer than you can imagine. As much as it will be filled with a lot of my darker moments, insecurities, I want my readers to know that no matter how bad a storm seas, there is still hope to many things in life. And by treasuring & appreciating the little things, it will take us a long way.
Deeply embossed in my heart was the day I mustered the courage to go to the doctor to finally come to terms with myself that something is wrong with my body/ health. To simplify it, it was a health problem that I constantly tried to avoid (for at least a year), thinking I am too young for shit health problems. Little did I know it was the tip of an iceberg- if not treated, will lead to unimaginable consequences. 2 surgeries it took me to have it solved, and now I am just taking in each day with generous amount of gratefulness, way more than I ever did. You, really, never know what will happen tomorrow.
Health issues/ unhealthy emotional thoughts drown my self-esteem, and self-worth. Having also to go through one of the darkest moments of my life I had to keep my business going no matter what- but no matter how hard I try to fight, I almost never see the light at the end of the tunnel, basically I felt everything was going downhill. (Also know that, should I not want to let those fighting a battle know that you're not alone, I probably wouldn't share so much of such a personal thing.) But I choose to count myself lucky, to be able to be surrounded by friends who care and never hesitated to lend a helping hand, be it my business, conversations about health or just the simplest encouragement and "How are you doing?" kept me alive and brought me the energy to continue fighting. These are the people I would go to the edge of the Earth with- my (rock) pillars of support.
The recent trip I took to Europe opened new doors for me- in terms of perspective. I find myself became cheerier, a lot cheerier. I find myself laughing so hard with these friends and only realised I have not laughed so hard in the longest time, I felt like the weight of my laughter, has, in a split second triumph over my woes (seemingly) forever. This pendulum of happiness came in full swing, right into my face. All these downs through this time, have taught me to appreciate these simple, good things. When I started to think more positively, I start to see things happening in the same direction as well. Like they always say, you become what you think. When I feel better as a person I felt I could bring these positivism to people as well and hopefully it will form a ripple effect. So I just want to say- if you're going through a tough period know that only tough people last, tough times don't.
I learnt that happiness takes place in many forms and levels- over the past year of learning how to deal with teetering waves of emotions stemmed from many areas in life, I learnt to accept and welcome happiness to my life in more ways than I had ever imagine. My perception of many things shifted, I would dare say, towards a better direction as I learnt how to be mentally strong through failures and rabbles of life. Chasing dreams is indeed not for the faint-hearted, it takes a lot of discipline and self-motivation to continue ploughing through hurdles, to get to the top. Mind over matter.
With that said, I am beyond excited for the times ahead for Winifred Kristé Cake. Thank God for blessing me with such an amazing team of angles to work with.. I am ready to fight another battle in life.
Let's do this.